So today is all about new-found inspiration and let’s not lie here, right now I couldn’t feel further from it. I am not sure how I feel.Nervous maybe? A little hopeful? Truth is, I spent a few moments earlier trying to think about the last time I was truly inspired and I all could come up with were the false bursts of focus I describe here. That’s the trouble with us borderlines though isn’t it, the moment often seems so overwhelming that none of it feels quite real and even if we do start something.. it doesn’t last very long. Continue reading →
Oh the mind of someone with borderline personality disorder, it never really stops does it? A wiser person than me once described my way of thinking as ‘having a lot of internet tabs open at once’ and you know what, it’s about right. I start things all the time and never quite finish them because there is quite simply, a thousand ideas crammed inside my head. I flick from one thing to the next and nothing has any order or place in reality because although I can spend hours planning wonderful things, they never seem to really go anywhere. I have all the ability to analyse because I spend enough time doing it to other people but I when my mood is low I lack motivation, drive and want to finish anything.
Does Any Of This Sound Familiar? Continue reading →